Thoughts on a hot hot day...

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Many many people don't feel well today. I think it is advisable to doubt your doubts, suspend your sicknesses and toy with truth. The truth for me is transitions..I am going through them in spades. My office of three years closed this spring. My car was totaled in hail. My dell from hell should be a toy of joy but delays and deception transits the cyberware and tests my very core. My book I gave to a dear friend long ago, ends up for sale without my permission on Amazon, not really published, more like "run-off", so I am hurt and angered at the disregard for my sharing. So now the true test, can I reshare it again to an anon person...I just want them to know, I don't think it should be 49.99..it's not even a real paperback...deception with no way for me to be the seller with a disclaimer, even if they think I am, as if I would over charge like that...and finally the real kicker today, clients deceive too...oh, I need you, oh, I have to pay later, Was my ego in it or was it truly a joy. I was in joy in the moment, because I am so glad for what I know, what I deliver from the HMI.EDU training I had. No weekend la-de-da class, no. A real deal. And when I get played, my ego is the one, why. Why? Why did I let it. What is riding on it. What part of the real me is not admitting it is ok to feel hurt and angry all in the course of a 3 day spread. What am I letting go of in this shift of the ages. What part of the dross must pass away, for my authentic self to speak even for me. Not just others. For me. Me too.